Loss of Passion Storylineon August 23, 2013
I know today’s comic is a little different than usual, in the fact that it doesn’t have a punchline, or a funny moment (at least intended not to be funny). Don’t worry- this won’t be the norm. I am sure many band directors go through this at one point or another, especially if you have been teaching a while.
Selfishly though, this storyline about Ed losing his passion for teaching is actually based on my own experience composing/arranging music. Overall, I was able to write music full time for about 10 years. They were great years and I was so fortunate to work at home. However, those last couple of years were rough as I was hit with the loss of passion virus. It got to the point where I did not look forward to writing music at all and, at times, I thought how convenient it would be to just have a “normal” desk job where I didn’t have to think creatively.
And that was scary for me. That is what I knew. I knew how to write music (some would argue I couldn’t). This is what I did for a living, and on top of that I was now married and had kids so it’s not like I could just throw in the towel. I can’t imagine what it would be like for band directors who have been teaching for years and years and then finally come to the conclusion that they are done, but yet it would take a huge effort to pick up and move onto something else. Every time I think about this concept I always go back to an idea of a preacher who loses his faith and has to turn his back on everything he has known and ever believed in and was ever taught, but it is so difficult getting to that point of making that decision of accepting “Maybe this isn’t for me.” (Vince Gilligan- call me about a pilot episode)
Point is, change sucks. Making that decision to change sucks even more.
I hope you enjoy this little storyline. The jokes do come back for the rest of the comics in the story. I just felt the need to exclude them today for some reason. Again, this won’t be the norm but I thought it would be appropriate today. That expression on Ed’s face in the last panel was me and I wanted to try to put it in a comic to show how I felt at one point about losing passion for writing music. Thanks for indulging me!